Things I force into existence rarely leaves me feeling the way I expect them to – actually I can’t recall a single thing I emotionally predicted. This fall, for example, I worked really hard on my finals, so sure finishing them would leave me feeling incredibly happy and proud of myself – while in the end finishing them left me feeling empty. Anyways; on some rare occasions I experience what I like to call miracles. They are experiences, people or physical things that come into my life without my initiation – leaving me feeling so incredibly happy and aligned with life.
I label them miracles because I know, deep within my heart, that they were sent to me for a reason. It’s such a special feeling connected with these things, that I can’t ever force. This year I was lucky enough to experience three miracles like this (probably more, but my memory aint that good hehe), that I would love to tell you about.
2019 has become the year I fell in love with the Norwegian summer. I’ve always been a fall-person, not quite felt comfortable with the high vibe energy that comes with the lighter seasons. But this year was different, as I found a new way to exist in these warmer months. This summer I spent a lot of time in nature, alone or with one of my friends. One really hot summerday me and my friend walked up beside the river and found a place in it to bath. Bathing there, in the perfectly lukewarm water, with no artificial noise – just me, him and nature; I felt like I was at one with everything around me. I know I was guided there. It was such a special feeling, and again; not something I could ever force. This exact moment changed my perception of summer entirely, and I’m so grateful.
My whole life I’ve been scared of driving, and actually never thought I’d get my own car. Like, never. This year would change that, though, and at the end of this summer I was the owner of a black little thing on four wheels. I made the decision to get a car, but I never imagined it would be as special as this particular one. It also came into my life in what felt like a miraculous way. None of the cars I saw online and wanted to get worked out for me, and suddenly this one appeared from a totally unpredictable source. I got it much cheaper than I otherwise would, and it’s a hundred times better than what I expected my first car to be. This vehicle is so special to me, and it might sound weird, but I feel like it has a soul. As though we have a connection. She takes care of me in the most beautiful way and makes me feel so safe whenever I drive her. We’ve been on some crazy rides together, and she’s made my life extremely more enjoyable. I know we are meant to be in this time and space.
Christmas is my favorite time of year, but has also become a challenging one. For the past three years I’ve lost loved ones just around Christmas, and this year was no exception. In the midst of all these endings my last little miracle appeared, as if she was sent to us for this exact reason. Vilma, this little not even two kilo Yorkshire Terrier, has made my heart physically ache from the second I met her. I love animals, but the love I feel, and instantly felt for her, is so much deeper than that. My chest still aches when I think of her, or just watch her exist – it’s the kind of love that feels so good it actually hurts. She’s the most innocent, loving, magical animal I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting. She came into my family’s life just when we needed her the most, and there’s no doubt in my mind she was meant to be with us.