What you’re about to read is a blogpost I wrote exactly a year ago, but for some reason it’s been left chilling in “drafts” since then. I stumbled upon it today and thought hey, let’s put it out in the universe. Definitely still stand by all of it.
April 24th 2017:
I recently reposted an old blogpost about my experience with anxiety (you can read it here), and in one of the last paragraphs I wrote that my goals in life has changed. Since some of you asked what my goals are now, I thought I would write a little bit about it today.
Not skinny but happy
One of the reasons why I got anxiety at the time that I did, was because I restricted my calories and was very strict with myself, the way I looked and “performed” in life. I’m not kidding when i say that the last 5 months or so up until my first panic attack I thought about food and my physical appearance every second of the day. Now my goal is not to be as skinny as possible – it is to be happy. I just want to be happy! No matter what that looks like to me, that’s what I want. I know that when I eat healthy, exercise, meditate and laugh, that makes me feel good and alive in the long run. So that’s why I do it.
Be a kind person
I just want to be kind to absolutely everyone. Not that I was a particularly ‘bad’ or bitchy person before, but still. My anxiety really taught me the lesson of being kind to myself, and when I saw the value of that, it made me want to be nothing but kind and loving towards everyone else as well.
Do work that I love
My family has always been very open minded around work, and encouraged me to study and do things that I’m passionate about. But as a teenager I was very much in the mindset of getting a lot of money by doing hard work I don’t necessarily like. After working a lot on myself I realised that the reason I wanted money was because I wanted to buy things/feel safe, which would eventually lead me to a state of happiness. My goal now isn’t about the money, it’s about going straight to the happiness part. Life is a unique gift, and for me, wasting 50% of my days doing something I’m not passionate about – it just isn’t what I want anymore. My goal is to earn a living on something I truly love.
With my own healing came a passion for helping others as well. I want to spend my time on this planet making other people feel good, and with my own experience show people a different way of doing just that. My goal is to leave everyone I meet happier than when I met them.